Getting ready to head out and have some fun. I am so tired of sitting here by myself. Found this place that has a band tonight that plays some rock like I like such as Seether. See ya later!!
Check out this video. Can Amy hold a tune or what?
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Love Me Some Live Music And Flowers
Getting ready to head out and have some fun. I am so tired of sitting here by myself. Found this place that has a band tonight that plays some rock like I like such as Seether. See ya later!!
Check out this video. Can Amy hold a tune or what?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I Have To Admit Something
I enjoy my XM radio very much. There is not any kind of music that I enjoy that cannot be found there. I can get traffic reports weather you name it. Not long ago there was a new station added to the mix. I only found it because I was flipping through the channels. Cosmo Radio. You know the magazine Cosmo. People that is some funny stuff!! All these 20 somethings on there like college girls!! I laugh oh boy do I laugh! Just check out the names of some of the shows! Cosmolicious! It's my guide to everything in my fabulous Cosmo life. Every day I hang out with Diana and chat about how to look great feel great and stay totally fun and fearless. They give me an exclusive peak behind-the-scenes at the magazine and share insider tips from top beauty fashion and lifestyle experts. It’s my midday girl talk to dish all about everything on my mind: pop culture (woohoo!) plus lots more juicy stuff!
How about Cocktails with Patrick!! Is your relationship on the rocks? No need for a secret decoder ring anymore! The resident guy guru, Patrick helps get inside the male mind and serves up a special blend of insight and relationship advice from a "dude" perspective. Then he mixes it with a dash of the hottest celebrity news stories of the day and of course he has fun and games! It’s guys decoding guys just for the girls! Wow!! Know ya know ladies!!
How about Get In Bed with Cosmo!!! Now that's the ticket!! I slip under the covers with Brian and Sara every night on Get in Bed. They talk about everything — and I mean everything — when it comes to sex and relationships plus they’re the ones to call when anyone may have any kind of hookup drama and God knows there is enough hookup drama right?!! I always tune in to hear what super sexy topic is on their naughty mind each night!
So if you think it's all about listening to Merle or George or Tammy sing about some broken relationship think again!! Now I have to get my fabulous Cosmo butt to the gym!! Have a wonderful day!!
Monday, February 23, 2009
Monday Random
I just have not been inspired to take many pictures in the last few weeks. I need to get after it. I love going back and looking where I was and what I was doing at any given time. Maybe I need to just kick myself in the butt and do it. It is something I really enjoy and what's wrong with a little enjoyment? I tried to do the picture a day thing before and failed. I vow right here and now before all the www to start taking pictures again.
Friday, February 20, 2009
I Heard It Through The Grapevine
Without question one of the most intense tracks ever cut into a piece of vinyl.
This is rock!
This is rock!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
A Little PDA
I have no idea who all reads this but just a little heads up. Shhh don't tell but tomorrow is The Queen Of Dallas's birthday. I have already told her what her gift is. I am really bad at not being able to wait to give gifts. I'll let her tell you what I got her if she wants to but I am just going to say she told me "I LOVE THEM" I think that means I did good!
I just want to share some of my feelings toward her. I have been lucky enough to get to know her pretty damn well over the last months and let me tell you she is every bit as beautiful in person as her pictures. The lady is HOTTTTT! What you may not really know though is she is every bit as beautiful on the inside. That is my favorite part about her. She is so giving it is not even funny. She is an amazing mother. There is nothing she does not or would not do for her son. If you have not been lucky enough to see her with him it awesome. From reading with him to playing legos. From playing Webkidz to hot wheels. She answers all the questions a 6 year old asks. She puts ALL of his needs first as she should and I have NEVER heard her complain. If you could see her home it's decorated in Nik. Pictures and art work on every wall. She is lucky enough to have a wonderful job and boss who allow her to be part of his school life as well. How is that not a good thing? It's great! He is lucky to have a mom that can do that and is willing to do whatever it is she is called upon to do. Speaking of her home I am still amazed that she moved almost the whole thing all by herself!! OMG!! In case you didn't know I am very very proud of her.
QoD I love you! I hope you have an amazing birthday!
This song tell just a few more of the feelings I have. I think you will get it:-}
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Just A Pic And A Song
Not to much to say today just another day in the life. Love Nora Jones and she is a North Texas grad!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Happy Tuesday!
Wow yesterday was a busy one! I took my car to the shop I think the fuel pump is going out then I went to work out. I LOVE living here in Plano what a wonderful place! I workout in one of the city rec centers and it is amazing! They have created a great atmosphere there. The trainers there are great!! I have been going now a couple of months every other day and they are starting to recognize me. They are always willing to answer my questions and always ask how I am doing. I got on the scale yesterday and am down to 211 now!! I need to dump about 15 more pounds. That will make 45 lbs and I already feel sooooo much better about my life in general. After the gym I went to the dentist. He and his staff have done a wonderful job! I have one more trip in a couple of weeks and all my issues will be fixed and I can have my teeth whitened! I cannot wait!!
I have to laugh after Mondays post. My dentist is in his early 60's. I guess some would call him a redneck he drives the most beautiful 4 wheel drive I have ever seen. I guess he needs it on his horse ranch. Funny thing he drives a 4 wheel drive has horses but also has a world class art collection. He and his wife are heading to Europe next month to add to their collection. Best of all! His son is a trucker!!
I have to laugh after Mondays post. My dentist is in his early 60's. I guess some would call him a redneck he drives the most beautiful 4 wheel drive I have ever seen. I guess he needs it on his horse ranch. Funny thing he drives a 4 wheel drive has horses but also has a world class art collection. He and his wife are heading to Europe next month to add to their collection. Best of all! His son is a trucker!!
Monday, February 16, 2009
You Be The Judge
Today was the start of another season of NASCAR. I have never been to a race even though there is a track here in the Dallas Ft Worth area. I enjoy the sport. It seems to me there are many good people involved giving a tremendous amount of money to charity each year. How is that a bad thing? Here is where I have a problem. I have heard it said NASCAR is just a low class redneck sport. To those people I ask have you read about the people involved? Do you have a clue what you are really talking about? Most of the teams have several college educated people at all levels participating. Are there "rednecks" involved both on the teams and in the stands? Without question just like in 99% of all the other sporting events I can think of. To make a blanket statement like that shows your lack of any knowledge of what you are talking about. Maybe you should educate yourself on the subject besides what is wrong with a little "redneck"? Gretchen looks pretty hot over there on that sidebar if you ask me!
Here is a funny from last week. I was coming into Louisiana and was pulled into the scale. There was a truck in front of me and it pulled up on the scale. There is a sign that the scale master uses to signal each driver what to do and the sign said "Pull Up" easy enough right? This truck sat there for TWO minutes folks! I thought the thing must be broke down. At this point the officer came out of the scale and signaled the driver to get out of the truck which he did and they started to walk back to where I was. I thought great they are coming to tell me they guy is broke down. When the two got back to me the officer signaled me to roll down my window which I did. He said "Driver what does that sign say"? I said it says Pull Up. He said "can you tell this driver what its says"? I said sure it says Pull Up. The officer asked me what does that mean to which I said Pull Up!
The driver looked at the officer and I swear to god said sir I am not from around here! LOL!! The guy went back to his truck pulled up a few inches and the officer hit the Stop sign then within two seconds hit the go ahead. I pulled up and he hit the stop sign told me to roll down my window and said over the PA what a dumb ass which we both got a good laugh and I drove off.
And just a little something from the weekend. I love being outside!! Have a wonderful Monday!! Remember smile it makes em wonder what you are up to!!
Here is a funny from last week. I was coming into Louisiana and was pulled into the scale. There was a truck in front of me and it pulled up on the scale. There is a sign that the scale master uses to signal each driver what to do and the sign said "Pull Up" easy enough right? This truck sat there for TWO minutes folks! I thought the thing must be broke down. At this point the officer came out of the scale and signaled the driver to get out of the truck which he did and they started to walk back to where I was. I thought great they are coming to tell me they guy is broke down. When the two got back to me the officer signaled me to roll down my window which I did. He said "Driver what does that sign say"? I said it says Pull Up. He said "can you tell this driver what its says"? I said sure it says Pull Up. The officer asked me what does that mean to which I said Pull Up!
The driver looked at the officer and I swear to god said sir I am not from around here! LOL!! The guy went back to his truck pulled up a few inches and the officer hit the Stop sign then within two seconds hit the go ahead. I pulled up and he hit the stop sign told me to roll down my window and said over the PA what a dumb ass which we both got a good laugh and I drove off.
And just a little something from the weekend. I love being outside!! Have a wonderful Monday!! Remember smile it makes em wonder what you are up to!!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Just Another Saturday...............
Do you ever rhyme? Sometimes to be silly willy billy? Or sometimes to be serious?
Sometimes
Sometimes hearts need to be broken, before they can be fixed.
Sometimes the road is misguiding, before you find your way.
Sometimes you need to hate, before you can learn to love.
Sometimes to need to sit back, and wait for THE ONE to find you.
I have been broken, before you came and fixed me.
I was lost and alone, before you came and found me.
I was in a world of hate, before you showed me love.
I was looking to be alone, and then there you were.
Sometimes you need to let go, before you get a grip.
Sometimes you need to cry, before you get to smile.
Sometimes you have to be alone, before you learn to value a friend.
Sometimes you make mistakes, before you get it right.
I was starting to let it go, you helped me off that ledge.
I cried so many endless nights, before you showed me happiness.
I went to be alone, and you gave me new company.
I made too many wrong turns, before you found me.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Dream
I have no idea who reads this but I have a question. Do you dream? I do not mean at night do you have dreams of what may be? I am one who has to dream. I have 2 or 3 working in my head right now. How about when times are tough do you just say aww screw it why dream? For some reason I do not give up on my dreams. I have to dream. Funny many of them do really come true. It may take time but that is ok most of them are worth it.
On a different subject. Today I went to get a prescription at the store. The lady in front of me paid $400 for her medicine. Is universal health care the answer or is it some type of legal reform? People have to have their medication but I thought what about the people who do not have insurance like this lady? It;s obvious she has a job. I know the legal system sucks do not get me started on that. Right after my oldest daughter was born the doc that delivered her quit his practice because his insurance was around 100k per year. That was 1984. At the same time the kids baby doc moved here from Canada because of all the problems with their health care system. I tend to lean toward a mix of fixing both. Are these idiots in Congress smart enough to do that? On second thought thats a pretty dumb question.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
At The End Of The Day
At the end of the day things all seem to work out for those who persevere. I loved the definition of the word.
To persist in anything undertaken; maintain a purpose in spite of difficulty, obstacles, or discouragement; continue steadfastly.
And just for the heck of it a selfie...............
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Beware!! The Threat Is VERY REAL!!
Everyone in America needs to see this! People the threat is all around. Terror level RED!!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
How A Gift From The Heart Changed My Life
I think in every life there are those moments that in some way change lives. For some it may be an inspirational speech or maybe something that is read in a book. For some it may be the day they graduate from college as the first graduate in their family. I had one of these life changing days in September of 2007. Oh I did not attend a Barrack Obama rally thats for sure but I received a gift. My first dslr camera. It was a birthday gift two months early.
I'd had a little point and shoot for a couple of years and took it everywhere I went. I took pictures of landscape and flowers but I had a heck of a time taking pictures of my son playing ball. Its kind of hard walking out on the field to get close enough to get a good picture! At a time in which I least expected it I got this great camera with the best lens I could think of to take pictures of my son playing ball. It was truly given to me as a gift given right from the heart. Just because she wanted me to take some better pictures at football games. I'll never forget it as long as I live.
You might ask yeah but how did that change your life. It's changed it in a way 99% of people would never understand. I am able to see the world in ways I have never seen it before. I see things every single day I would always just pass up as nothing exciting. It allowed me for the first time to express myself for just who I am. Oh I am no great photographer for sure but I do like showing my photos in just the way I see the world. I'd never done that my whole life. I had always looked at life through someone else's eyes. Every move I had made every decision was based on how is this going to make me look? If I do this what is this person going to think? This is the answer I will give to this person because I think this is what they would want to hear. A huge percentage of every move I made was based on that. Making the other person happy with me.
Slowly but surly since that September day that has changed. It's not been easy. Oh I have done things not to make others happy but as I was REALLY enjoying some moment in the back of my head was this voice saying what would this person think or you need to go back to the house now before someone asks to many questions. It took the real enjoyment out of what I was doing in some cases. It is a really stupid way to live trust me. Do you know you really can make out in the parking lot of a Target store at midnight during the busy Christmas season? I mean MAKE OUT people!! IT'S AWESOME!!
I'll never live like that again. Oh I understand there are rules and laws for sure but living to simply make myself look good to someone else is a thing of the past. Notice I did not say I would not do the right thing for someone when that is what is called for but to just make every decision based on if it makes me look good no thanks. I've also learned that when I do that it can hurt the very person I want to hurt the least and as it turns out I hurt them for no reason at all. I once again did not do what I wanted to do and people I have learned a major life lesson from that. No Trucker Steve is going to live a happy productive life making decisions based on what makes Trucker Steve happy.
I'd had a little point and shoot for a couple of years and took it everywhere I went. I took pictures of landscape and flowers but I had a heck of a time taking pictures of my son playing ball. Its kind of hard walking out on the field to get close enough to get a good picture! At a time in which I least expected it I got this great camera with the best lens I could think of to take pictures of my son playing ball. It was truly given to me as a gift given right from the heart. Just because she wanted me to take some better pictures at football games. I'll never forget it as long as I live.
You might ask yeah but how did that change your life. It's changed it in a way 99% of people would never understand. I am able to see the world in ways I have never seen it before. I see things every single day I would always just pass up as nothing exciting. It allowed me for the first time to express myself for just who I am. Oh I am no great photographer for sure but I do like showing my photos in just the way I see the world. I'd never done that my whole life. I had always looked at life through someone else's eyes. Every move I had made every decision was based on how is this going to make me look? If I do this what is this person going to think? This is the answer I will give to this person because I think this is what they would want to hear. A huge percentage of every move I made was based on that. Making the other person happy with me.
Slowly but surly since that September day that has changed. It's not been easy. Oh I have done things not to make others happy but as I was REALLY enjoying some moment in the back of my head was this voice saying what would this person think or you need to go back to the house now before someone asks to many questions. It took the real enjoyment out of what I was doing in some cases. It is a really stupid way to live trust me. Do you know you really can make out in the parking lot of a Target store at midnight during the busy Christmas season? I mean MAKE OUT people!! IT'S AWESOME!!
I'll never live like that again. Oh I understand there are rules and laws for sure but living to simply make myself look good to someone else is a thing of the past. Notice I did not say I would not do the right thing for someone when that is what is called for but to just make every decision based on if it makes me look good no thanks. I've also learned that when I do that it can hurt the very person I want to hurt the least and as it turns out I hurt them for no reason at all. I once again did not do what I wanted to do and people I have learned a major life lesson from that. No Trucker Steve is going to live a happy productive life making decisions based on what makes Trucker Steve happy.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Friday Evening
I have made it back to Big D. The sunrise was beautiful this morning!! Here are a couple of photos!! I got THE ONE but I gave that to THE ONE:-}
It's Friday.
I am sitting here in lovely downtown Corpus Christi Texas at 5:45 in the morning on the balcony of my hotel room overlooking Corpus Christi Bay. It is going to be a beautiful day getting up to 77. As I was driving down here yesterday morning I was thinking I have not seen the ocean since 1985. I guess I still haven't since the bay is not the ocean but I'll take it for now.
One of the things about my job is it gives you hours to think which can be good and hours to think which can be not so good. How could thinking not be good you may ask? I believe that sometimes one can think to much and it causes them (me) to in many cases not go with what my heart says do. This I have found has gotten me in trouble on more than one occasion. I have found that I make my best decisions when I go with what my heart says and there have been several times lately I have not done that. Oh there are times I do and I am proud of those times. I will admit something right here. I am 48 years old and I share a house with my parents. I catch the receiving end of many a joke about that at work but I have one hell of a good reason I live there. I wouldn't change that for anything so screw em all LOL! I was sitting on the seawall looking up at the moon last night and I listened to my heart.I really liked what it is saying. One of the things I AM going to do is go with what my heart says more and more I know my spelling grammar and writing skills are a little lacking but I am a pretty smart guy when I want to be very capable of making some great decisions when I go with my heart. I am going to start cranking up the XM every time I sense the brain starting to override what my heart is saying.
In about an hour the sun will be coming up over the bay. I am hoping that I get a couple of special sunrise shots before heading back to Dallas. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
The sunset was pretty good but I want to get that ONE special shot.
One of the things about my job is it gives you hours to think which can be good and hours to think which can be not so good. How could thinking not be good you may ask? I believe that sometimes one can think to much and it causes them (me) to in many cases not go with what my heart says do. This I have found has gotten me in trouble on more than one occasion. I have found that I make my best decisions when I go with what my heart says and there have been several times lately I have not done that. Oh there are times I do and I am proud of those times. I will admit something right here. I am 48 years old and I share a house with my parents. I catch the receiving end of many a joke about that at work but I have one hell of a good reason I live there. I wouldn't change that for anything so screw em all LOL! I was sitting on the seawall looking up at the moon last night and I listened to my heart.I really liked what it is saying. One of the things I AM going to do is go with what my heart says more and more I know my spelling grammar and writing skills are a little lacking but I am a pretty smart guy when I want to be very capable of making some great decisions when I go with my heart. I am going to start cranking up the XM every time I sense the brain starting to override what my heart is saying.
In about an hour the sun will be coming up over the bay. I am hoping that I get a couple of special sunrise shots before heading back to Dallas. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
The sunset was pretty good but I want to get that ONE special shot.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
:-}
Here it is right in black and white for everyone to see if you really don't know who I am. I am just a good ol country boy with a heart that just to damn big for my on good. I am like everyone else I make mistakes along the way. Oh boy do I ever but I learn from each of them.
One of my favorite singers is Travis Tritt. Does anyone else go from Tritt to Seether?!! LOL!!! I have seen Travis a couple of times and one of the things I just love is that it's so obvious he LOVES what he does!! The smile and energy he brings is awesome. One of my favorite songs of his is It's A Great Day To Be Alive! LOVE IT!!
Check it out!
Well I am packing up and taking one of those road trips he talks about and I am not even taking my razor LOL!
Love Peace and Happiness!
One of my favorite singers is Travis Tritt. Does anyone else go from Tritt to Seether?!! LOL!!! I have seen Travis a couple of times and one of the things I just love is that it's so obvious he LOVES what he does!! The smile and energy he brings is awesome. One of my favorite songs of his is It's A Great Day To Be Alive! LOVE IT!!
Check it out!
Well I am packing up and taking one of those road trips he talks about and I am not even taking my razor LOL!
Love Peace and Happiness!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
100 Things. The Second Half.
51. I don't sleep enough.
52. I am smart enough to know that so I always allow for a nap at work.
53. Its great to have a job where if needed the company encourages a nap.
54. I always have some sappy dream rolling around in my head. Sometimes they do come true and sometimes they don't but I have to dream.
55. I have learned that even though I believe what I do God does answer prayers. God answered one I prayed for many years. God answers them in Gods time frame. This is a very hard thing for me to latch on to. Like they say and you know how they are this is an I want it NOW society. I am no different. That prayer was one in which I said God in your own time and it turned out better than any I have prayed.
56. Sometimes the answer to our prayer is no. I have come to realize many times mine are no. When I look back sometimes no is not all bad.
57. I am drinking a fruit smoothie I just made. It's very good.
58. I ate a 6 inch veggie last night. It wasn't very good.
59.I have XM radio in my truck and its great. I can crank it up and listen from here to there.
60. I wonder if anyone in DC pays taxes? What would happen if we didn't and yes I feel certain it's both sides. Our elected officials are a bunch of crooks.
61. I have on a black shirt right now that I have not been able to wear in over a year. It fits now.
62. When I finish writing this post I am going to the gym. We have a great gym.
63. I have a step brother who is a Sgt. Major in the Army.
64. One of the things I wish I had done was join the Marine Corps.
65. You can't look back.
66.I am a giving person.
67.I am told all the time "you are to good for your own good" What the heck does that mean?
68.I enjoy seeing people smile.
69.I have come to the understanding that everyone has problems no matter what it looks like from the outside.
70.Some people have problems that nobody would ever know.
71.I Like the saying walk a mile in my shoes. Except for one person at work everyone there thinks I live a perfect life. They have no idea who I am.
72.I know my life is anything from perfect.
73.My friend at work pretty much knows my life story and I know his. One night I took a chance called him up and spilled my guts. I couldn't hold it in any longer I'd reached my breaking point for the first time in my life. After spilling my guts he said OMG I need to tell you something as well. We have talked every night we have worked since then. That was 5 years ago. Funny in that 5 years I have seen him maybe 20 times and never more that 2 or 3 minutes.
74. I have a 52" flat screen in the house. I don't even watch TV.
75. Remember the window unit AC's? I used to love to listen to the sound they make when I would go to bed.
76. I miss my grandparents.
77. I love the sound of little kids laughing.
78. Is there anything more special than seeing a child sleep?
79. I always wanted to adopt a kid. I thought it would be awesome to give some kid a shot at being loved and wanted.
80. It feels good to be wanted.
81. The washing machine just went off. BRB.
82. I never learned to spell when I was in school. If it were not for spell check I'd be in trouble.
83. I love being outside. I enjoy taking my camera on a walk and just seeing what's different out there today.
84. The best present I ever got was a camera. If it ever breaks beyond repair I will display it somewhere in my home.
85. What photography has done is allowed me to see things I have never really paid attention to before.
86. I am really ready to start building a home again. I didn't say house I said home. It's been a hell of a ride. Its time.
87. I love home made mac and cheese but it does not love me. I gain 10 lbs just thinking about how good it is.
88. A couple of months ago I looked a a picture I'd taken of myself. It was shocking to me how fat my face was. I knew at that moment I had to get to work.
89. I have learned that I can do things I never dreamed I could do. There are other things I thought I could do that I really had no idea how to do.
90. I like the smell of a good candle.
91. Love the sound a fire in the fireplace makes on a cold winter night.
92. Did I already say I love to kiss?:-}
93. I learned 15 years ago to say I love you because you may never get the chance again. There are different kinds of love. I love my job I love my friend at work. I'm in love.
94. I was told my whole life animals do not have souls. Those people were wrong.
95. I switched from PC to MAC last year and will not go back.
96. Took a while to understand you do not right clickLOL!
97. I really enjoy my new blog.
98. Never go to work at a job just because of the money. You will hate it.
99. I have been there and done that and it makes for a very long day.
100.I sing I dream I love.
52. I am smart enough to know that so I always allow for a nap at work.
53. Its great to have a job where if needed the company encourages a nap.
54. I always have some sappy dream rolling around in my head. Sometimes they do come true and sometimes they don't but I have to dream.
55. I have learned that even though I believe what I do God does answer prayers. God answered one I prayed for many years. God answers them in Gods time frame. This is a very hard thing for me to latch on to. Like they say and you know how they are this is an I want it NOW society. I am no different. That prayer was one in which I said God in your own time and it turned out better than any I have prayed.
56. Sometimes the answer to our prayer is no. I have come to realize many times mine are no. When I look back sometimes no is not all bad.
57. I am drinking a fruit smoothie I just made. It's very good.
58. I ate a 6 inch veggie last night. It wasn't very good.
59.I have XM radio in my truck and its great. I can crank it up and listen from here to there.
60. I wonder if anyone in DC pays taxes? What would happen if we didn't and yes I feel certain it's both sides. Our elected officials are a bunch of crooks.
61. I have on a black shirt right now that I have not been able to wear in over a year. It fits now.
62. When I finish writing this post I am going to the gym. We have a great gym.
63. I have a step brother who is a Sgt. Major in the Army.
64. One of the things I wish I had done was join the Marine Corps.
65. You can't look back.
66.I am a giving person.
67.I am told all the time "you are to good for your own good" What the heck does that mean?
68.I enjoy seeing people smile.
69.I have come to the understanding that everyone has problems no matter what it looks like from the outside.
70.Some people have problems that nobody would ever know.
71.I Like the saying walk a mile in my shoes. Except for one person at work everyone there thinks I live a perfect life. They have no idea who I am.
72.I know my life is anything from perfect.
73.My friend at work pretty much knows my life story and I know his. One night I took a chance called him up and spilled my guts. I couldn't hold it in any longer I'd reached my breaking point for the first time in my life. After spilling my guts he said OMG I need to tell you something as well. We have talked every night we have worked since then. That was 5 years ago. Funny in that 5 years I have seen him maybe 20 times and never more that 2 or 3 minutes.
74. I have a 52" flat screen in the house. I don't even watch TV.
75. Remember the window unit AC's? I used to love to listen to the sound they make when I would go to bed.
76. I miss my grandparents.
77. I love the sound of little kids laughing.
78. Is there anything more special than seeing a child sleep?
79. I always wanted to adopt a kid. I thought it would be awesome to give some kid a shot at being loved and wanted.
80. It feels good to be wanted.
81. The washing machine just went off. BRB.
82. I never learned to spell when I was in school. If it were not for spell check I'd be in trouble.
83. I love being outside. I enjoy taking my camera on a walk and just seeing what's different out there today.
84. The best present I ever got was a camera. If it ever breaks beyond repair I will display it somewhere in my home.
85. What photography has done is allowed me to see things I have never really paid attention to before.
86. I am really ready to start building a home again. I didn't say house I said home. It's been a hell of a ride. Its time.
87. I love home made mac and cheese but it does not love me. I gain 10 lbs just thinking about how good it is.
88. A couple of months ago I looked a a picture I'd taken of myself. It was shocking to me how fat my face was. I knew at that moment I had to get to work.
89. I have learned that I can do things I never dreamed I could do. There are other things I thought I could do that I really had no idea how to do.
90. I like the smell of a good candle.
91. Love the sound a fire in the fireplace makes on a cold winter night.
92. Did I already say I love to kiss?:-}
93. I learned 15 years ago to say I love you because you may never get the chance again. There are different kinds of love. I love my job I love my friend at work. I'm in love.
94. I was told my whole life animals do not have souls. Those people were wrong.
95. I switched from PC to MAC last year and will not go back.
96. Took a while to understand you do not right clickLOL!
97. I really enjoy my new blog.
98. Never go to work at a job just because of the money. You will hate it.
99. I have been there and done that and it makes for a very long day.
100.I sing I dream I love.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
100 Things. The First 50
1. I am the oldest of 3 children.
2. A brother and sister.
3. Both are in the DFW area.
4. My sister has made the choice not to be part of the family for the last 20 years.
5. I am getting to know my brother again since we were small children.
6. He has some very funny stories from his college days.
7.I love the sound and smell of the coffee maker in the morning/afternoon/night
8.Mine just finished brewing a fresh pot!
9. Ok! Back and it's as good as comfort food.
10. I remember as a child playing outside for hours at a time. Give us a mud puddle and a Tonka truck and we were as happy as could be.
11. The name of my kindergarten was Happy Time. It was a happy time.
12. I went to Mark Twain Elementary in the 1st grade. Maybe thats the reason I enjoy Mark Twain.
13. In the second grade my parents built a brand new custom home. It was beautiful. They thought of everything. From all the built ins to the flooring. Total cost in 1968 was $36,000. We lived there 6 months before we moved to East Texas. The last time that house sold the price was $245,000.
14.I wonder what this says about me. We also lived close to a railroad track. I had friends that would put big branches on the track. The biggest thing I could ever put on there was a penny then I would go to bed at night and hope that that little penny did not make the train jump the track.
15.I was also the one that would watch a ride at an amusement park many times before I ever rode it.
16.Lets speed this up a bit shall we. I LOVE TO KISS!
17. I shower a couple of times a day but I need to take more baths.
18. The feel of skin after a bath or shower is amazing.
19. I enjoy the feel of fresh sheets.
20. Eye contact. Love it!
21. Holding hands. Oh yes!
22. I am thinking of a relationship I screwed up by doing something really stupid that somehow I'd like to mend. No I've never kissed the person or held her hand LOL. Maybe time really does heal. I hope so.
23. It is hard for me to think that at 48 I am just now figuring out what I believe about God. Part of it is in a previous post. I think sometimes we must step back and take a close look at such important things and I have never done that. I went to church for over 40 years where I had someone telling me what to believe or I would spend the rest of time burning in hell.
24. I do not think it is my place to tell someone what to believe. If they ask what I think I can share but there are to many people telling others what to believe.
25. I taught 10th grade Sunday school for more than 10 years. 99% of that time I tried to teach from a real world perspective. It got me in trouble more than once but each year there would be some kids that would tell me they had never had a teacher they learned more from.
26. The highlight of my Christmas season used to be the Sunday I would spend working in the kitchen of a homeless shelter. It made me thankful for all I had.
27. Just because I taught Sunday school and went to church did not make me a good person.
28. I have since seen having looked in from the outside there are some bad people everywhere. The church has lost it's way that is for sure.
29. My favorite color is always changing. These days I really like black. It has nothing to do with being down I just like black.
30. I am on 30. I have a long way to go!
31. I have found out who my real friends are.
32. The other evening I went through my telephone. I saw several names in there of people in which the only contact that has been made over and over for many years was by me. A couple of those people I have know since I was in high school. I took their name and number out. Oh I am sure they are like us all and I have no idea what's REALLY going on in their lives but each time I have called over the years they have said how good it is to hear from me then I'd go a couple of years call them up they would say the same thing. I was making all the effort. Idk. Maybe I was a true friend.
33. May the 29th will mark my 30 year high school graduation. That's really funny in ways I can't put on this blog.
34. Funny but I REALLY REALLY love the reason.
35. I use the word really to much.
36. I have not taken a real vacation since 1995.
37. My favorite vacation spot used to be the mountains. The view from the top of Pikes Peak is awesome!
38. I've been to California once and want to go again.
39. I have heard the beaches of Florida are beautiful.
40. You can start living at 48.
41. I have a question. Is the relationship you have with your significant other strong enough that you can share your most personal thoughts with them? I mean anything? For the first time In my life I can I can do that. I do not have to keep it to myself or post it on some blog. It's very comforting to know this.
42. The church I used to attend just completed a sermon series on political incorrectness. A couple of those sermons talked about how wrong it is to be gay. Oh course I am not gay but have friends that are. I even consider two of them my brothers because my mom has "adopted" them. I put myself in their shoes for a moment and wondered about all the bs they have had to deal with in their lives. How could the church beat these loving friends of mine down? If there were a kid in the crowd that is gay and just hadn't told anyone how must that person feel? What is right about that?
43. Especially in the last 2 months I have done a lot of thinking about what I want to do in my life and what's important. I know it's hard to live with me sometimes. Sometimes I am not a good person. I speak before I think. I am working hard on that one.
44. I lied to someone at Christmas. They have forgiven me and for that I am grateful.
45. I am so thankful for the job I have. I know this without trucks everything stops.
46. I am enjoying doing this 100 things list. It's taking me much longer to do it this time than on the last blog I had.
47. I am finding out what real love is.
48. A big part of it is putting the feeling of others ahead of yours. It all works out in the end if you do that.
49. A mans job in the home is not to dominate his home. It's to serve. Again all the rest will work out. Cleaning up cooking from time to time washing the clothes from time to time all say I love you and you matter without having to say a word.
50. Speaking of cooking I love to cook. Along with cooking here is a simple pleasure. Washing dishes by hand sometimes can be very therapeutic.
2. A brother and sister.
3. Both are in the DFW area.
4. My sister has made the choice not to be part of the family for the last 20 years.
5. I am getting to know my brother again since we were small children.
6. He has some very funny stories from his college days.
7.I love the sound and smell of the coffee maker in the morning/afternoon/night
8.Mine just finished brewing a fresh pot!
9. Ok! Back and it's as good as comfort food.
10. I remember as a child playing outside for hours at a time. Give us a mud puddle and a Tonka truck and we were as happy as could be.
11. The name of my kindergarten was Happy Time. It was a happy time.
12. I went to Mark Twain Elementary in the 1st grade. Maybe thats the reason I enjoy Mark Twain.
13. In the second grade my parents built a brand new custom home. It was beautiful. They thought of everything. From all the built ins to the flooring. Total cost in 1968 was $36,000. We lived there 6 months before we moved to East Texas. The last time that house sold the price was $245,000.
14.I wonder what this says about me. We also lived close to a railroad track. I had friends that would put big branches on the track. The biggest thing I could ever put on there was a penny then I would go to bed at night and hope that that little penny did not make the train jump the track.
15.I was also the one that would watch a ride at an amusement park many times before I ever rode it.
16.Lets speed this up a bit shall we. I LOVE TO KISS!
17. I shower a couple of times a day but I need to take more baths.
18. The feel of skin after a bath or shower is amazing.
19. I enjoy the feel of fresh sheets.
20. Eye contact. Love it!
21. Holding hands. Oh yes!
22. I am thinking of a relationship I screwed up by doing something really stupid that somehow I'd like to mend. No I've never kissed the person or held her hand LOL. Maybe time really does heal. I hope so.
23. It is hard for me to think that at 48 I am just now figuring out what I believe about God. Part of it is in a previous post. I think sometimes we must step back and take a close look at such important things and I have never done that. I went to church for over 40 years where I had someone telling me what to believe or I would spend the rest of time burning in hell.
24. I do not think it is my place to tell someone what to believe. If they ask what I think I can share but there are to many people telling others what to believe.
25. I taught 10th grade Sunday school for more than 10 years. 99% of that time I tried to teach from a real world perspective. It got me in trouble more than once but each year there would be some kids that would tell me they had never had a teacher they learned more from.
26. The highlight of my Christmas season used to be the Sunday I would spend working in the kitchen of a homeless shelter. It made me thankful for all I had.
27. Just because I taught Sunday school and went to church did not make me a good person.
28. I have since seen having looked in from the outside there are some bad people everywhere. The church has lost it's way that is for sure.
29. My favorite color is always changing. These days I really like black. It has nothing to do with being down I just like black.
30. I am on 30. I have a long way to go!
31. I have found out who my real friends are.
32. The other evening I went through my telephone. I saw several names in there of people in which the only contact that has been made over and over for many years was by me. A couple of those people I have know since I was in high school. I took their name and number out. Oh I am sure they are like us all and I have no idea what's REALLY going on in their lives but each time I have called over the years they have said how good it is to hear from me then I'd go a couple of years call them up they would say the same thing. I was making all the effort. Idk. Maybe I was a true friend.
33. May the 29th will mark my 30 year high school graduation. That's really funny in ways I can't put on this blog.
34. Funny but I REALLY REALLY love the reason.
35. I use the word really to much.
36. I have not taken a real vacation since 1995.
37. My favorite vacation spot used to be the mountains. The view from the top of Pikes Peak is awesome!
38. I've been to California once and want to go again.
39. I have heard the beaches of Florida are beautiful.
40. You can start living at 48.
41. I have a question. Is the relationship you have with your significant other strong enough that you can share your most personal thoughts with them? I mean anything? For the first time In my life I can I can do that. I do not have to keep it to myself or post it on some blog. It's very comforting to know this.
42. The church I used to attend just completed a sermon series on political incorrectness. A couple of those sermons talked about how wrong it is to be gay. Oh course I am not gay but have friends that are. I even consider two of them my brothers because my mom has "adopted" them. I put myself in their shoes for a moment and wondered about all the bs they have had to deal with in their lives. How could the church beat these loving friends of mine down? If there were a kid in the crowd that is gay and just hadn't told anyone how must that person feel? What is right about that?
43. Especially in the last 2 months I have done a lot of thinking about what I want to do in my life and what's important. I know it's hard to live with me sometimes. Sometimes I am not a good person. I speak before I think. I am working hard on that one.
44. I lied to someone at Christmas. They have forgiven me and for that I am grateful.
45. I am so thankful for the job I have. I know this without trucks everything stops.
46. I am enjoying doing this 100 things list. It's taking me much longer to do it this time than on the last blog I had.
47. I am finding out what real love is.
48. A big part of it is putting the feeling of others ahead of yours. It all works out in the end if you do that.
49. A mans job in the home is not to dominate his home. It's to serve. Again all the rest will work out. Cleaning up cooking from time to time washing the clothes from time to time all say I love you and you matter without having to say a word.
50. Speaking of cooking I love to cook. Along with cooking here is a simple pleasure. Washing dishes by hand sometimes can be very therapeutic.
Monday, February 2, 2009
What's Your Favorite?
This www is an amazing thing no? I am sitting at a Starbucks in downtown Dallas writing a blog post. Very cool!
I ALWAYS get Pike Blend with 2 shots of peppermint. What's your favorite flavor?
I ALWAYS get Pike Blend with 2 shots of peppermint. What's your favorite flavor?
What I Believe
I want to say something here that's taken me a lifetime to come to. I have written 2 post's about looking in the mirror so to speak. Here is something in which I have looked at my very soul to discover. In the last year and a half I have really done not only a double take in the mirror I have done some "soul searching" as well. I have read the WHOLE Bible cover to cover. I do believe that there is a higher power but in my mind the Bible is a book of stories made up by man.
Since I was a small child I questioned in my mind stories such as Noah and the ark. Would a loving God really flood the whole earth because "he" was pissed off at the people? Would "he" really send the soul of billions to an "eternity" of burning fire? What about the people that never heard of christ? I was told those people knew within their soul about the saving power. The 6 year old that dies? They are not at the age of accountability I was told. Their was an answer for every question. What about really good people in each of our lives who did not go the same Baptist church I went to and never accepted christ as their saviour? I was told each week that their souls were doomed for that fire. I simply could not buy it any longer.
It was not until I stepped back and really examined my very soul that I truly saw the light. I quoted some versus in my last post. There are some wonderful things in which I do believe are awesome examples of the way we should live. Those versus were just one of those. There are many other example as well. Be kind to one another. Love your brother as yourself. All of these are of real value.
I looked at how my church reacted when I left home. I was attacked in a way that NOBODY should be. In a way that was ANYTHING but christ like. I was told that my happiness did not matter to god I had made a vow when I was a 19 years old and I had broken that vow I should come before my family beg for their forgiveness and come back to the "flock" Beg for their forgiveness for what trying to find my happiness? They had a "pray for Steve" meeting which was attended by each of my children that I was told by 2 of them lasted 3 hours. In this meeting they were told some outright lies which I had hard physical evidence to show just was not true. Oh the preacher boys that lead this meeting were just eating it up. Telling them how really screwed up their father was. Let me tell you who did the "christ like" thing here. I talked to my lawyer and was told I had case to sue the living hell out of these people.but did I do that? No, I took the high road and just sat back and let them have their fun. They had shown their TRUE colors.
Having said this I do believe there is a higher power. A God. This universe screams of it. Oh I do think this higher power created it via evolution and in ways in which man will never know. I do think this higher power speaks to us in ways we will never know. Many many scientists in which my church would say are headed for hell believe in this higher power as well. They have spent their entire lives using the brain they were given to just come to some conclusion on how this higher power did it. I have at times in my life when I least expected it heard this quite still voice and without question knew it was "God". It's just not the god that man made up. See they had to put god on our level. In their minds we were created in "his" image. What about women? Do they really want me to believe that this god came to earth via a virgin birth and never did one thing wrong in 33 years? No this was made up just to make some men feel better about themselves.
Like I said it has taken some real soul searching for me to come to where I am today. For the first time ever I feel more free than ever before. I can look at thing now with an open mind for the first time ever. Sometimes asking the question is the start to something very good.
I know this post is not well put together. I went to sleep with a real burden on my mind at midnight and tossed and turned until 5am when I just could not do it any longer so here you have it. Maybe soon I will continue this because I really do have much more I could add. I am just like everyone else if they are honest. I have my faults. I have many of them. Throughout my life I have made mistakes and I am sure will make more. None of us are perfect. I guess I am just honest enough or maybe it's that I am really stupid enough just to put what I believe out there for everyone to see. Maybe I can be honest enough to say "you know I have grown as a person enough to know just what I believe now even if through the years it's not the same. Maybe I am not so closed minded that I can still learn.What could be wrong with that? I was told a while back that "I am not going to tell you that you are a good person" That was fine I do not need someone who does not care one thing about me to tell me that. I understand there are many things that are just to personal to post on some stupid blog but I am proud of who I am. Even though I have a long way to go and many things still yet to learn.
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I thought I'd give it a try. I am making some good things happen. When I got dressed I am now able to wear my old jeans!! I have lost two pant sizes in the last couple of months. At least some things in my life are going well.
Since I was a small child I questioned in my mind stories such as Noah and the ark. Would a loving God really flood the whole earth because "he" was pissed off at the people? Would "he" really send the soul of billions to an "eternity" of burning fire? What about the people that never heard of christ? I was told those people knew within their soul about the saving power. The 6 year old that dies? They are not at the age of accountability I was told. Their was an answer for every question. What about really good people in each of our lives who did not go the same Baptist church I went to and never accepted christ as their saviour? I was told each week that their souls were doomed for that fire. I simply could not buy it any longer.
It was not until I stepped back and really examined my very soul that I truly saw the light. I quoted some versus in my last post. There are some wonderful things in which I do believe are awesome examples of the way we should live. Those versus were just one of those. There are many other example as well. Be kind to one another. Love your brother as yourself. All of these are of real value.
I looked at how my church reacted when I left home. I was attacked in a way that NOBODY should be. In a way that was ANYTHING but christ like. I was told that my happiness did not matter to god I had made a vow when I was a 19 years old and I had broken that vow I should come before my family beg for their forgiveness and come back to the "flock" Beg for their forgiveness for what trying to find my happiness? They had a "pray for Steve" meeting which was attended by each of my children that I was told by 2 of them lasted 3 hours. In this meeting they were told some outright lies which I had hard physical evidence to show just was not true. Oh the preacher boys that lead this meeting were just eating it up. Telling them how really screwed up their father was. Let me tell you who did the "christ like" thing here. I talked to my lawyer and was told I had case to sue the living hell out of these people.but did I do that? No, I took the high road and just sat back and let them have their fun. They had shown their TRUE colors.
Having said this I do believe there is a higher power. A God. This universe screams of it. Oh I do think this higher power created it via evolution and in ways in which man will never know. I do think this higher power speaks to us in ways we will never know. Many many scientists in which my church would say are headed for hell believe in this higher power as well. They have spent their entire lives using the brain they were given to just come to some conclusion on how this higher power did it. I have at times in my life when I least expected it heard this quite still voice and without question knew it was "God". It's just not the god that man made up. See they had to put god on our level. In their minds we were created in "his" image. What about women? Do they really want me to believe that this god came to earth via a virgin birth and never did one thing wrong in 33 years? No this was made up just to make some men feel better about themselves.
Like I said it has taken some real soul searching for me to come to where I am today. For the first time ever I feel more free than ever before. I can look at thing now with an open mind for the first time ever. Sometimes asking the question is the start to something very good.
I know this post is not well put together. I went to sleep with a real burden on my mind at midnight and tossed and turned until 5am when I just could not do it any longer so here you have it. Maybe soon I will continue this because I really do have much more I could add. I am just like everyone else if they are honest. I have my faults. I have many of them. Throughout my life I have made mistakes and I am sure will make more. None of us are perfect. I guess I am just honest enough or maybe it's that I am really stupid enough just to put what I believe out there for everyone to see. Maybe I can be honest enough to say "you know I have grown as a person enough to know just what I believe now even if through the years it's not the same. Maybe I am not so closed minded that I can still learn.What could be wrong with that? I was told a while back that "I am not going to tell you that you are a good person" That was fine I do not need someone who does not care one thing about me to tell me that. I understand there are many things that are just to personal to post on some stupid blog but I am proud of who I am. Even though I have a long way to go and many things still yet to learn.
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I thought I'd give it a try. I am making some good things happen. When I got dressed I am now able to wear my old jeans!! I have lost two pant sizes in the last couple of months. At least some things in my life are going well.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
More Random Thoughts From The Weekend.
According to 1 Corinthians 13
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I get most of these. I admit I am good at all but one. I am the most trusting person I know maybe to a fault. I am not proud I am kind blah blah blah but looking in the mirror this weekend I must work on the not easily angered part. It all goes back to the communication piece. I HAVE TO WORK ON THAT. Looking in the mirror from time to time is not a bad thing. I have come to the realization that I do have my faults and by either taking counsel looking in the mirror or both is the only way I will ever improve.
I was laying in bed and heard these words. They are beautiful.
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart
Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time
No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way
But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time
No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
I spent the whole day today outside. It was 70+ here in The Big D!!
A few shots from the weekend.
It was so cool to walk around the lake today. It was comforting to see each picnic table with either a couple or a family enjoying the beautiful Sunday afternoon. Yep it's true the best things in life really are free.
I took a whole loaf of bread and fed the birds. It's so fun to watch them dive from the sky and get the pieces of bread. Nature is truly an amazing thing to watch.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I get most of these. I admit I am good at all but one. I am the most trusting person I know maybe to a fault. I am not proud I am kind blah blah blah but looking in the mirror this weekend I must work on the not easily angered part. It all goes back to the communication piece. I HAVE TO WORK ON THAT. Looking in the mirror from time to time is not a bad thing. I have come to the realization that I do have my faults and by either taking counsel looking in the mirror or both is the only way I will ever improve.
I was laying in bed and heard these words. They are beautiful.
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart
Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time
No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way
But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time
No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
I spent the whole day today outside. It was 70+ here in The Big D!!
A few shots from the weekend.
It was so cool to walk around the lake today. It was comforting to see each picnic table with either a couple or a family enjoying the beautiful Sunday afternoon. Yep it's true the best things in life really are free.
I took a whole loaf of bread and fed the birds. It's so fun to watch them dive from the sky and get the pieces of bread. Nature is truly an amazing thing to watch.
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